Strained tunes.

Playing the guitar is fun. It's seldom a hobby for someone who loves the instrument, I'm sure they'd consider it a passion instead. I think it's one of the most beautiful instrument ever. You can create your own song, and give your voice it's own background music.

I think I get way too depressed when I play the guitar sometimes.
I find a strange metaphor associated with it.
The fact that I'm trying to sing, wanting someone to hear me out, in a controlled way, so as to make the song seem nice, feels fake.

I'd much rather play off tune, so long as I like what I've got to say. If that's all what I want to say. Does it have to sound good?

I think it does. I think polishing your skills, voice, communication, everything, it's important. But it feels kind of wrong, and terrible. Of how my broken ways, song, or tune, won't be accepted. I'd still try to play the song properly, that's the only choice I have.

It'd be so much better if I'd accept the way I am, and be proud of what I'm learning, and the good ways in which I'm changing.

Things seem so confusing at times. I honestly can't make sense of whatever it is that is happening. I'd try and play more, but I'd feel so lost. Can't be better unless I'm calm while practising, can I?
Still hope to get better though. But I think it should be only for myself.

Be a better person, sing a better song, so that I personally, can be proud of myself. Yes. I guess I'd be driven forth without much depression if I keep that in mind. I'd enjoy the music more that way.